Penultimate day to Year 2010

Christmas is over! Finally, a breather from all the activities and preparations of various sorts. Somehow, the joy of Christmas seems to be diminishing with each passing year as it becomes more commercialised and I certainly hope that its meaning will not, similarly, lose its value.

2009 is drawing to a close! Started reading my past blog entries from January onwards to recall what I've been up to this year cos 2009 has been a year where I would say I have been facing each day as it comes and as such, it has been a blur of events, gatherings and stuff. Some events which happened this year seemed like it happened light years ago!

Anyway, I realised that entries relating to my academic year in 2009 had a common theme with regards to me losing the drive to study. Maybe it's Study Fatigue (after almost 14 years of studying). Other than that, Bidding is (and will continue to be) a recurrent blurb as long as I stay in NUS. Talking about that, bidding started today and I'm quite thankful that I already have 3 modules from MPE: Cognitive Psych, Bio Pysch and Stats II (time to face up to my fears). I'm hoping that I get to do my 6th-module quest this semester, keeping my fingers crossed that "Romanticism" will still have vacancies in Round 3A...


And I'm glad that I sorta achieved my resolution for Year 2009 of keeping fit. Actually, I think I did more than what I thought I would, which is jogging for at least once a week. I've almost made up my mind to join Sundown 2010 in the 21km category, in hopes of improving my timing compared to the Army Half-Marathon but it will mean having to spend at least another 60 bucks, (after burning a deep hole in my pocket due to HK trip, MUSE concert, and a play)...worth it?

Accompanied my grandfather to the Diabetic centre yesterday, didn't expect it to be as long as 5 hours! It's quite painful to see Ye Ye having to take injection after injection, not to mention many blood tests to monitor his blood sugar level (and even more painful to see the expression on his face) while at it. He already has so many medications it looks like we were doing grocery shopping at the pharmacy (and I've not even taken into account the medication he has at home). And I don't really like the patronising tone the nurse uses on Ye Ye, I just hope that they would not take advantage of my grandparents and get more out of them financially just because they are clueless of the proceedings...

On a lighter note, I love Avatar 3D! It proved myself wrong with regards to movies with aliens and blue people but the human-alien interaction at the end was a lil' wrong. It's quite amazing that James Cameron had the vision to recreate another language so many years back, even before LOTR came about. Movie was great as a whole but I felt that the 3D part could do with a little more interaction with the viewers. Watching "The Fourth Kind" next! (Still waiting patiently for "Alice in Wonderland" and "Dorian Gray" to be out).

6 more days to HK trip! Have to start coming up with the travel list and the accompanying hassle that one has to go through before a vacation. I'm happy that the trip is finally materialising as I'm finally able to leave Singapore but it's a downer to realise that once I'm back, school starts in 2 days' time =.=

Anyway, my resolution for Year 2010 is quite simple: to prioritise and manage my time wisely, spend more time with my grandparents and to study hard (and smart), all this to be done according to God's will and direction.

"We don't pray and read the Bible to get a perfect, trouble-free life. Pursuing God is not cause and effect. The pursuit of godliness will not exempt us from trouble (2 Timothy 3:12) . . . [but it] will help us face what comes our way. . ." -ODB

Punjabi Happy Nickmas

It's that time of the year again, and here's a unique (and refreshing) take on christmas! XD

Happy Holidays everyone! :D

all hell breaks loose

YESSSSS!! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT FOR A LONG TIME! EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVERRRRR!!!! :D

'Was feeling quite distracted the previous day 'cos the thought of today being the last day of my exams was quite overwhelming. Having said that, I'm quite thankful that today's paper was manageable (partly cos it was an open book) but at least I managed to structure the essay reasonably well, thank God! :D As for the rest of the papers, I'm quite apprehensive about developmental and abnormal psych but I'm just gonna have faith and hope for the best...

Having said that, I'm typing this right now with a newfound ferocity cos it's been awhile since I hit the keys of my laptop due to my self-imposed exile, mainly of going on msn and facebook-the 2 greatest vices so far, even turning on my laptop. Another reason was cos I didn't want to get affected by things which I see online that will lead to a whole flood of irrational, unnecessary emotions, which might affect the exams so...I'll save that for post-exams (which is now- yeah I know,I'm a highly-emotional being at times).

Had steamboat and watched Couples' Retreat with Sarah and Ryan immediately after the paper (we planned for it even before exams started!). Can't wait to carry out my list of post-exam activities, especially since the month of December has finally arrived. Time seriously zooms by like nobody's business. The memory of going over to Yireng's place to knit the Mario costumes is still fresh in my mind! Thinking of that makes me inevitably think about what we're gonna wear for this year's Black & White Christmas and thankfully the costume is easier to assemble, thanks to Virnice! XD

Anyway, the month of December is always a busy one. There are so many things on my mind right now, so many things to do and settle that I think I have to list them down just so I'll not overlook anything, in no order of merit (quite an exhaustive and personal list so skip that if you have to):

1. I have to go Christmas-shopping, think of birthday presents (this will keep me occupied for quite a bit)
2. do the module preference exercise and planning for the bidding for next semester (!!!)
3. visit the grandparents (really have to! They were so excited about their newly-renovated house)
4. resume my running routine, shed off those exam-accummulated love handles (ZY, I'm free already!)
5. meet Cui (very important!)
6. check the specifics for the MUSE concert (can't believe I'm going for it and with LY too!)

7. movies with a few people esp Trina (2012! Those who have watched so far loved it!)
8. striking off items from my personal online movie and booklists (which is quite impossible to achieve in the short span of 1 month)
9. upload photos from camera and phone
10. Is Christmas carolling still on? (hmmm...)
11. mini project still on? (ha ha)
12. almost forgot! Renew passport! Take photo! :S
13. anyone keen to watch Chicago:the musical next year? XD
14. think of a resolution for the HK trip (and fast)

Hmm...frankly speaking, I really hope my excitement of Christmas won't be dampened by all the shopping and present-wrapping and stuff cos all this should not overshadow the fact that it's supposed to be a day for Jesus and for remembering the reason of why Christmas exists in the first place...

On another note, December leads me to ponder about Year 2009 as a whole. In comparison with the previous year, I'm very sure that this year was a more exciting, memorable and spontaneous one: tried quite a few things which I would not have normally done, challenged myself to go all out and overcome my fears, re-prioritised stuff, changing my modus operandi especially in the area of academics (partly due to me putting my trust in God and not worrying excessively), the works...As such, it seems like a year of self-discovery, about knowing exactly my strengths and weaknesses and coming to terms with certain stuff about myself. Of course, this is a neverending process but I have to say that certain stuff became clearer and better evaluated this year.
Nevertheless, it was also bittersweet: like what Salman Rushdie mentioned in Midnight's Children, with every ladder there's a snake.With every gain there is a loss and so it comes as no surprise that by knowing and being involved with more people, there will be more problems(not to mention the hurts that are attached to them). I'm not saying that people are a pain in the butt, neither am I appealing for your sympathy. I think this will inevitably be something which everyone will experience at a point in their lives, just that it has become more apparent to me lately (took me this long to realise yeah). Having said that, the gains more than made up for the losses (probably a reason why the disappointment hit hard big time cos they were people dear to me). Then again, I have to be fair to the small but close group of friends who supported me at the right moments and who understood my take on things, and for not judging me based on them (something which I HIGHLY regard cos it's not an easy feat).
Think I've said more than I intended. Anyway, in summary, Year 2009 has revealed many issues about people and how complex people can be to the point that certain cases are still an enigma to me now that I think about them (sheesh, seems like I'm reading my life like a lit book now. I've gotta stop.

Enjoy the remaining 29 days, people!

" Remember those earlier days after you have received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution;at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You sympathised with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions.

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised . . . we are not those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. "

[Hebrews 10:32-39]

not again....

It's been a long time....actually, I was tempted to blog on a few occasions but I decided otherwise. Anyway, I'll be extremely tied up this month and I'm starting to feel its effects already. Think it was due to all the late nights with the church people that made me weary and all (of course I don't blame them, it's me and my lack of proper time management).

I think I'm experiencing some sorta an emotional overload these few weeks. There have been enjoyable times and of course, the disappointing/hurting moments that only myself and a few others are aware about. Recently, I've learnt a lot and came to a lot of conclusions about people through my quiet moments of observation and analysing: how they act and behave in different situations and they're unexpected actions subsequently (in general, in case you're wondering). It's like Social Psych coming alive again - a "sadistic" kind of field trip that I've undertaken on my own accord.
As I reflect on what happened recently and how I dealt/manage those moments, I realised that I've become more resistant and, to a certain extent stronger (in terms of handling situations and coming to terms with it). Sometimes, it becomes so extreme that I know that there are times when I feel like crying but I tell myself that it wouldn't solve the problem and that the sore eyes will hamper my activities (eg. studying). Yet, I know that there is still this vulnerability that I'm unable to address and get a grip on.

One thing I'm really glad about is that my friends have stuck with me, given me advice and encouraged me (and I really, really thank God and appreciate them a lot). They never fail to make time to listen to me whenever I'm going through a rough patch and all but what I'm concerned about is family. Like what they always say "Blood is thicker than Water" but I don't really see it manifesting in mine (Hmm, then again the insecurity mentioned earlier might stem from this). I tend to admire friends who are very close to their families, siblings and stuff and I know that whenever they're in for a rough ride, they'll definitely turn to them first. Why issit that I can't do the same?

Sometimes I feel that I'm unable to confide with M cos she lacks the type of advice I need and will only come up with "practical" solutions that wouldn't seem to solve the problem. Sometimes I know that she knows I'm not being myself but I have this intuition that she doesn't dare to ask me about it. S is still too young to understand anything, although ironically, I think that I can be at ease with her the most. D is non-existent: he has his own life. And let's not even go on to talk about B. So all that's left is my friends - Sounds good but not enough. In fact, I've been relying on them way too much and although I've made improvements to be strong and stand up against these obstacles on my own, there's bound to be an Achilles Heel somewhere down the road.

I know that God has been with me a lot (and especially recently when I learnt to trust in Him more, which I see happening as I surrender more to Him) but He didn't make family for nothing.

Then again, maybe it's a good thing that I only have God and myself to account to: might teach me to cherish my independence more (and be more comfortable with it) and not be so dependent (emotionally) on others.

rebound!

I just realised that the last time I blogged was before I ran the Army Half! It's been a while man...anyway, thank God that I'm done with the Army Half. It was an experience,indeed. Haha! And like what I've been telling people, I was the last amongst my fellow running enthusiasts to complete the race (not like it's worth "boasting" about anyway)... Like any race, I've learnt a great deal about the dos and donts of marathon running:

1. Start slow, no matter how fast the others are running.
2. Run with music for runs that are longer than 10km. (The 21km felt like forever to complete!)
3. Eat an extra banana. According to the Banana Theory I've developed, 1 Banana could sustain me for 10km so for 21km I should have just eaten another one cos I got hungry halfway...heh.

The waterpoints were horrible it made despos out of us. (Still can't believe Josh just drank from a random bottle by the roadside!)

Anyway, this week was a rather hectic one...I'm not taking the music module anymore cos of (unjustified) timetable clashes but at least my Devt Psych appeal got through so besides this mod, I'm taking Abnormal Psych, Social Psych, Singapore Film (Haha to "Hang Jebat!") and Brit Lit. So far the people in my tutorials are quite nice, some familiar faces here and there and I can't believe ___is in my tutorial, how lucky can one get? XD

Other than school, the only other thing that's taking up a considerable amount of time would be Big Create. Just learnt new stuff from Wenyi for the band, and realised e. guitar's not as easy as it looks! I still prefer Bass btw....Anyway, the musical is 2 wednesdays from now and I've yet to perfect my part! :S

Last but not least, I've had a great birthday this year! Thanks to everyone who wished me or celebrated it and stuff...really appreciate everything, even if it was just a birthday greeting :)

Stay healthy folks!

I don't know why but I'm starting to feel jittery. Ok, maybe "jittery" is an understatement, I'm freaking out right now!!!

It's always easy in the beginning when one agrees and commits by registering and paying, it's only when you're in the process of training (or doing otherwise, which is highly likely!) ,or when that day draws closer after what seemed like eternity that you begin to realise the impact of your actions...haha!

21km sounded OK initially but the digits start to get bigger, now that I'm just 8-9 hours from the real deal. Maybe it's due to all the well wishes prior to the race (especially today) that make the run more of a reality. It's not that I haven't been doing anything to prepare for it, I have been upping the distance by 5km for each jog I did in the last few weeks. I've managed to hit 10km plus before the whole sore throat thing came about, which stopped the training regime even though it was one week before the actual run so....I don't know whether I'm prepared for it. Cedric was telling me the other night about his experience (he's running tmr too!). He ran CONTINUOUSLY for 21km but then, it's not very surprising considering the unit he hails from.

Nevertheless, I'm already in it, there's no turning back! Note to self: I have to get a grip. It's not like I'm climbing Mt. Everest (!!!)

And today's devotional was very, very apt for the occasion:

" Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore, I do not run like a man beating aimlessly...No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."
[1 Corinthians 9:24-27]

Guess I'll just do the best I can tomorrow and run with a purpose!

B&B

Recently, I've been shoe-shopping...hmm,then again it seems like I've been shoe-shopping since a long time ago. I keep telling myself that I have WAYYYY too many pairs of pumps,shoes,sandals, the works...but in the end I'll lose my defenses and mom will start nagging at me for occupying almost the whole shoe cabinet!

Anyway, my "wedges" phase is almost over (after acquiring 2 pairs and gaining much satisfaction!) Recently, my latest feet fetish would be nude stilettos (OK, beige stilettos/heels in an effort not to sound crude). No more glaring, bright footwear that will catch the eye of passersby but the humble pair of nude footies.

Beige footwear tends to soften what would otherwise be a formal look, don't you agree?


Hayden Penetierre!

For some reason, it makes me feel one with Mother Nature cos it gives me the feeling that it's back to basics, that there's nothing to hide and everything is there as it is (OK, I'm starting to wax lyrical already!). Besides, I think I might justtt be able to pull it off, after my experience with brown peep-toe pumps...heh.

Good decision to put Meredith Vieira in beige patent heels with this outfit, makes for a more relaxed setting on a talkshow...

Chloe Sevigny in her beige strappies, a nice alternative to the nude patent stilettos I had in mind!


Just discovered that Christian Louboutin also had the nude/beige look in his signature collection and I believe Ayumi Hamasaki was one of his clientele for the look but unfortunately I can't find a picture of Ayumi wearing it! Nevertheless, I think Jessica Simpson looks nice and sweet in this one...

Somehow, this pair of beige/ off-colour yellow heels seems to tone down Victoria Beckham's intimidating/diva-like persona...at least, something new for a change!

Hmm, don't really have a thing for beige flats but these pair on Angelina Jolie doesn't look too bad...

Ahhhh! If only I can have Marissa Tomei's beige patent version...it's perfect! 8)

This is my favourite picture out of all I've posted so far. Somehow, this shot of Penelope Cruz dressed in soft cream/beige (not forgetting the matching beige footwear!) just proves that dressing simply can make one look elegant. Besides, I think this colour scheme's her element, it sorta complements her personality actually.

OK, I'm not into fashion as most of you already know and this shoe spread is just a one-off thing so...haha! Sartorial issues aside, I have some merry news..hahaha! I got all my 5 modules already,thank God seriously! :D

For core mods, I'm only doing Abnormal Psychology and Social Psych cos I'm unable to get Developmental Psych as it was in high demand (?!?!) And it was quite a relief that I didn't get Stats II cos I can't bear the thought of going through all that Stats shit again la (even though I have to face it eventually in subsequent semesters).

I used up my last elective mod on "Music in the Global Context", which is quite cool cos I finally get to do something I really want (with no obligations and stuff) and I get to actually have lessons at Yong Siew Toh Conservatory! XD

The other 2 would be British lit and Singapore Film (in an attempt to fulfil Uni requirements and actually, or hopefully, have an enjoyable experience out of it). Hopefully my appeal for Devt Psych gets through...

School's starting next Tuesday! No more slacking...I have to swing my CAP upwards from now onwards...crazy muggers....

PS: looking forward to the weekend :)

Period.

Feeling quite satisfied that I've met my target of running 7km today! :D Been procrastinating since Friday and if not for Nelvin, who keeps issuing constant reminders to "WAKE UP AND DO YOUR RUN!! 10 ROUNDS!!", I would still be idling at home! (Ps: Zhiyi! When are we ever running together again?)

The recent weekend wasn't a pleasant one, especially on Saturday. 'Was angry, disappointed and hurt all at once due to some things my mum said, which was quite unreasonable. Anyway, today would have been a better day to R&R since things have mellowed down a little and I'm feeling more objective ( I hope). Sometimes I wonder if things would have been better if I had furthered my education overseas and have more freedom. It would have been a good break from them anyway, although I can be sure that I'll miss some aspects of Singapore life...

My paternal grandpa's discharged now and thank God that he's fine. Visited him with the family on Saturday and it all would have turned out well until the security guard at the lift lobby had to ruin everything. I was fuming mad cos of all the commotion/fuss he created and if not for the sake of maintaining my testimony, I would have given him more than a piece of my mind!! (Now I know why they always say that anger can lead to high blood pressure and all sorts of things cos' I was so angry that I became giddy, I don't even know how it happened!)

I'm just thankful that Ye Ye is home now. Think I should really spend more time with him man...I can never forget that forlorn look on his face when we first entered his hospital room. And also the genuine happiness in his voice when I called him and Mama today. Seems like I should reorganise my priorities and spend more time with people who truly appreciate it, rather than on those who have been taking me for granted...

Maib's birthday is around the corner but since she's down with fever and H1N1-related symptoms (not that she's actually inflicted with the virus), she has to stay indoors for a week. The good thing about it, according to her, is that she gets to skip her 2.4km run but on the other hand, it would mean that she'll be spending her birthday in bed! XD

Anyway, just received news that my MATERNAL grandpa was just admitted to the hospital due to some lung problems (is there no end to this?!)

OK, think I should stop wallowing in self-pity...this is badd!! Other people have it worse than me (eg. the starving children in Africa, the homeless and destitute, etc...). Now's an apt time to catch a comedy online...

on Cloud 9 and three quarters!

YAY! My wish came true! Actually it's not really unattainable, just that I didn't imagine that it would happen so soon. I COULD FINALLY GO TO DEMPSEY! :D

Yeah,yeah...some of you might be thinking no big deal, but for an east-sider like me who usually do not frequent such far-flung places for no apparent reason, it was happiness to me man!!!

Actually it was quite unexpected. Cos after the wine-tasting with Trina and Nelvin, the latter suggested Dempsey cos an earlier agreement between him and me was that if he drove me to the "Land of the Atas", he would get a Ben&Jerry's treat in return! XD In the end, Alan treated all of us AND I get to go to Dempsey! Blissssss! Feeling quite guilty (but VERY satisfied!) now cos before Dempsey, they drove to Adam Road to appease my prata cravings and that was after we had the wine and fries! XD

Anyway, as some of you might know, I was quite disappointed and upset about how I performed for Mulan even though they said it was good....we should have done a full-dress rehearsal! Anyway, enough of feeling negative already, feeling quite sick by just thinking about it all the time. Most importantly, I'm very happy that what I prayed for is starting to yield some result, no matter how small it is and that is more important than the drama. Thank God!

School starts officially on 11th August! My slacker lifestyle is finally coming to an end, which is good and bad cos my mind will finally be stimulated after months of hibernation but with that comes the stress and all, especially for this coming semester but I'm believing that it'll be a better sem than the previous 2 so...yeah...haha!

HAPPAYE CLAPPAYE! :D:D

So far so good.

Thank God that this week was quite a fruitful one. It was madness compared to the past few weeks of slacking and lazing around, 'was wondering why I get easily exhausted these few days but maybe 'cos the body couldn't adjust to the sudden flurry of activity...Urgh, better do something about it :S

Anyway, the "Zhong Hua Ying Xiong" event is like my baby now, in the sense that I've been quite immersed in preparations for the event (something which I've never really committed to before for past church events). From the painting of props (which was more challenging than I thought!) to the brainstorming of ideas for the booth decor, as well as the rehearsals for the mini-drama, I'm starting to wonder how on earth are the pastors able to manage (and sustain) event after event! Their dedication is seriously admirable,not only must they plan and manage the people and logistics for the event, but they have to see to the people's welfare (eg. sending them off after rehearsals, ensuring their basic needs are met during prep for the events, availing their homes for practices,etc...) And this doesn't even make up half of their job scope!

Anyway, the drama is coming along well. The choreo's much better now (David, Joelle and I spent almost the whole afternoon coming up with it!), all it needs is a bit more sponteneity and energy from the cadets. We had a stage rehearsal, which was quite good (depending on how you see it) cos the cast was more into their roles, to the point where Ben ripped the wire of my cordless mic and Alan was so violent that he splintered the bamboo stick! XD

Hmmm...still need some direction on how to portray Mulan, especially THAT particular part...


And I really have to thank God again. Pastor Mong Yee called me last night!! I might be in Music Ministry now and 'cos of that, Mom and Sis are attending Alpha with me! Don't think you'll understand my joy but it really means a lot to me, ya know XD

And I know all of you will say I'm crazy but I'm running in the Army Half-Marathon (yes, HALF MARATHONN!) in August! Nelvin really suits his day job man (that's sales, btw)..think he managed to convince Alan (who wasn't too keen about it initially) to join too, and he even got Trina! Pray for me man, I don't wanna end up half-dead, with foam and drool oozing from my mouth (with my life flashing before my eyes) during/after the event!

And to end on a nice note, Esther kept to her promise! Not sure whether I'm allowed to post this picture..don't think she visits my blog often..heh...

To mark her "coming of age" and her sole, courageous voyage into the Twenties, I "graduated" her! Happy 20th! :D

A Day in the Life of...

"Zhong Hua Ying Xiong" (aka Chinese Heroes) night is approaching in 11 days' time! I'll be acting as Mulan in the Region A drama. Still feeling a lil' jittery 'cos this is my first time acting in church so if you can, come for the event okayee! Ask me for more details!

And Yee, I don't think we are allowed to videotape the drama 'cos I think it's prohibited so you'll have to go if you wanna see me "live and acting like a woMAN"...haha!

Actually, it's an adaptation of the Disney Film, a more contemporary setting without losing its essence. For now, the cast and the script is more or less settled...the soldiers are really a motley crew of...hmmm..adolescents...haha! And the Good General's not as bad as I thought (phew!)

Did part of the choreography at Pastor Quee Beng's place just now, even though I feel that they could be a little more synchronised. This might get better over time though, when the guys are getting more familiar with their roles. Hmmm, better not reveal too much lest it breaks the suspense! XD

Class gathering yesterday, mainly cos Rach's back (another excuse to meet up!) Waraku's food sucked! Miso Ramen was so salty!!! Maybe that's why they used the big,ostentatious-looking bowls to make up for it....argh! And Paulaner was great but I was slightly groggy by then...


More pictures on FB!

Moon River

This version's one of the nicer ones found so far. Makes for some good late-night listenin' (except for the part at 0:44 where she went off-key!)

Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going, I'm going your way.

Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.

Updates, downsides,uphills,backtracks...

First of all, to the people who asked about the Mt Faber Run, thanks for your concern and support! :)

The run was definitely more challenging than the previous one due to the slopes. Because of them I couldn't endure as long as I would like to and I ended up stopping to walk periodically! And cos of that my timing deproved! :( Anyway,it was a good experience....too bad I couldn't linger to appreciate the scenery from Mt. Faber! Saw many more fit people who had iron and steel for muscles and bones. They ran like clockwork, not to mention the "unique" warmups they conducted prior to the race! XD Thought I saw Kai Ning there but my eyes might just be playing tricks on me....

Anyway, this week might be my last week of freedom, depending on the circumstances....haha...

Sab's doing her recording for the vocal demo tomorrow, can't wait to see how it's like! Was really inspired and motivated when I saw her live during the dance recording. She's gonna teach me one day! Woohoo!

Gotta run now, stay healthy everyone! The weather's a killer these days...

YAY! I GOT NDP TICKETS FOR THE ACTUAL DAY! :D:D

Almost screamed into the phone when the person called to inform me about it. Imagine how the winner of Miss Universe must have felt, or even the winner of Singapore Idol! XD Could tell Charlie Brown was ecstatic too cos he was the one who told me to try balloting for it :D

Sentosa yesterday with Elizabeth. My sunburnt arms are tingling and starting to feel itchy...Realised that I haven't been to Sentosa for ages so, many changes made! (My first time taking the Sentosa tram from Harbourfront. Quite noob I know!)

My favourite shot! XD

Wanted to be all touristy and explore Fort Siloso and Underwater World but can't bear to part with what little cash I had...I wonder how tourists will rate Sentosa man. Nothing much unless you love the beach, at least until the IRs and the theme parks are up.

Anyway, church camp was great although the place was a lil' too secluded, which means no shopping (the nearest mall was 15 mins' drive away) and no late-night suppers. Actually there wasn't a need for supper cos the frequency of our buffet-style meals and the quantity and quality of the spread, ensured that we remain as healthy and prosperous as prized pigs. Sadly, the only form of exercise I got was a 2-hour leisure swim with Wenyi, Norina, Christine,etc...which didn't really help much. Could have gone to the gym like the others but I had limited clothing.

Another interesting fact: the hotel had a manual wake-up call service. Usually, when we dial Reception and ask for wake-up call, they'll just set a programmed call for the next morning, but this one actually sends the staff to knock on your door to wake you up! XD

*Doorbell rings at 6 plus in the morning*
Me: (shuffles to the door in my PJs, complete with messy hair and sleepy eyes, opens the door)

Who's that?

Staff: (in a cheery voice) Morning! This is your manual, wake-up call service! :D

Me: =_=

Morning and night services were great, wished I had more energy cos strangely, I kept feeling tired and lethargic throughout the camp even though I didn't do much (I suspect the sudden change in my sleeping habits could be the cause) Nevertheless, it was an insightful experience...

My sister got stopped at Singapore customs on the way home due to her higher-than-usual body temperature. In light of the H1N1 incidents, they have this heat scanner devices at immigration to quarantine anyone who falls in the high-risk level. Could tell my sis was shocked but they released her and gave her the usual advice to lower her temperature.

Missed home a lot though and I'm glad to be back! :D

Ps: Imogen Heap's album "Ellipse" will be out in August...WOOOHOOO! How timely! :D

Pre-camp postulations

Hello people of the world!

Life's a beach these days. Late nights, waking up to the lunch hour, being immersed in novel after novel, eating whatever I want and going wherever I want at my own time and pace,etc...love the hols man! :D

Having said that, thank God that Sophie-D did reasonably well for her French and other modules!

Anyway, I'll be going away for church camp from tomorrow till Friday afternoon and much as I wanna get out of Singapore asap, a part of me seems reluctant to leave our sunny shores. This camp wouldn't be the same as the previous few cos Esther,Sab and Mid wouldn't be there (which means no late-night chats, playing of pranks and pillow fights!), this is Mum's maiden experience (the family's rooming together) and we'll be leaving on the last coach at the latest timing, much to my aunt's dismay...haha...

On the plus side, I won't have to worry about my meals (for eg. what to have for the next dinner,etc...), the hotel seems pretty interesting (heard they have some horses there to ride or something like that), there'll be plenty of time to swim and I think I have potential supper buddies! :D

Nevertheless, I hope and pray that everything will be much better than expected. But of course I'll miss people like Roy (You're first on the list, be honoured!), I'll miss Ellen D. (stay gay and happy), I'll miss Shisei (heh heh), I'll miss Papa Bear, jogging with Zhiyi (I promise I'll try to fix another date k!) Swensen's 1-for-1 Deal, Tampines One and it's air-con, Cold Storage's Black Pepper Chicken, the hot blazing Singapore afternoons (not!), my bed, my fave hangout Tampines library (and the smell of books), and definitely not the Stinky Blob (haha...no la,of course he'll be dearly missed when I remember him, that is!)

Have a sexaye holidaye! :D

Whose line is it anyway - Funniest Songstyles ever!

CAN'T STOP LAUGHING...OH MANNNNNNN! XD She just kept flexing and parading throughout! And that traumatic expression on Wayne's face after she left! Priceless!!! AHAHAHAHA!

tenacious ten

Week 3 of my holidays. I've been waking up to the sound of my clock ticking at 2pm almost everyday, save for the days when I jog/swim. Although I have a whole list of things that I plan to do, there would inevitably be more time for thinking and be buried in thoughts, sometimes to the extent that sleep at night is compromised. Ironically, all this thinking would wear me out and cause me to sleep in the afternoons! Anyway, presenting the top 10 of the month:

(1) Discovering a new-found abhorrence for rape
Came about after reading a novel recently. The dehumanisation and disrespect for females was too much to take. Didn't help that the rapist was so masochistic and sadistic. This isn't even about feminism but basic rights for all individuals.

(2) Irony of mind vs. mouth
Was thinking about my self (as usual). Realised that my mind speaks more than my mouth, and my mouth thinks more than my mind.

(3) The thing about fairy tales and love stories
Hate to say this but I'm growing increasingly skeptical about happy endings, which is scary even to me cos I thought I'll be the last person to think so.

(4) Love & Acceptance
Carried forward from the previous point. If Life was a book, then Love and Acceptance would be its main themes and we, its pawns. Just look around you, you can see it everywhere in people's eyes.

(5) Spongebob Squarepants
I feel like a sponge.

(6) Silence is Golden: Silence and Gold
Both can overwhelm us due to its weight.

(7) Australia
I miss Cui and Dhab.

(8) Paris
Didn't turn out like what I imagined! (after seeing Esther's photos). Hmm...Norway wouldn't disappoint, would it?

(9) Simple joys
Was enjoying a chocolate bar with Sab in the church shuttle. Didn't realise that such simple pleasures could bring so much joy!

(10) The intentional act of remembering: small talk
People usually forget. Never fails to amaze me when friends bother to ask and show concern about the nitty-gritties of my life (from where they left off).

Charice Pempengco in Korea - part 1

Young girl with a big voice! If I'm not wrong, her performance here prompted Ellen Degeneres to fly her all the way from her hometown (The Philippines) to be on Ellen's show!

straight from the horse's mouth...

I've never understood the power of Prayer and how it could impact me so deeply until tonight. Like everyone else at some point of their life, I was quite sceptical about Prayer. (In case you do not already know, Christians are humans too and are equally susceptible to making mistakes just like anyone else).

I do pray but occasionally, I'll have my doubts. Sometimes I get frustrated when I feel that nothing seems to be happening, or when Prayer seems like a one-way conversation and it feels like I'm talking to myself, but in this world where instant gratification becomes almost second nature, the notion of patience as a virtue becomes quite undervalued.

My thoughts are a little jumbled now but what I'm trying to say is this: When it comes to talking to God, it is the only time when you can really be your true self, where all the facades, the superficiality and the pride you parade in front of others (in order to gain their acceptance) gets stripped away, layer by layer, as you realise that there's nothing to hide in His presence cos He knows everything. You can really unload and tell Him everything in a way that you might not be able to with others (how you feel or felt about certain things, etc...). Sometimes, in the process, He will show you hints of what you should be doing/how you should be facing your problem instead. And the more you talk to Him and present to Him your version of things that happened, you gradually realise the loophole(s) which you might have overlooked before.

Prayer is like a tete-a-tete with God. As there is no pressure/interrogation from people that might instigate you to be defensive (and justifying your actions with whatever excuses you can come up with, at that point, to counter the verbal tirade), you start to gain perspective on where you have erred (if you're praying about a problem, that is).

You might be sceptical about Prayer but you never know, until you are actually in that situation where there seems to be no way out. Maybe it might help if you see it as a way of preventing yourself from wallowing in the mire of self-pity, when you actively seek to find solutions to your problem(s) instead.

You might also question why He doesn't answer your prayer(s) but then again, we must remember that God knows us better than we know ourselves. Our immaturity/lack of foresight might lead us to pray for things that are not appropriate to have at that point of time. Sometimes, He knows that you might be better off not having the thing you requested for,and it's only in the future when you look back again and realise that it is actually a blessing in disguise.

Then again, you might be doubting God due to Christians you have met, who do not seem to be walking the talk and exemplifying what they believe in, but remember that they are just like any individual, equally as vulnerable if they are not careful. In fact, God is aware of this irony when He says that "These people draw near to Me with their mouth, and honour Me with their lips, but their heart is far from Me." (Matthew 15:8-9).

Anyway, one thing's for sure: I think most of you will definitely agree that you cannot depend on your friends all the time, no matter how strong the friendship is, for they will surely fail you at some point. At these times, remember that God is always there when you're feeling your most vulnerable and when everything seems so bleak that it starts to overwhelm you to the extent that you start to lose hope in everything.

Remember that He is always willing to listen to whatever you have to say, even though you might feel that there is no weight in your words. If He can carry the weight of the world on His shoulders, then there really is no problem too big that He cannot solve.

I know that I'm the last person on earth to have the right to gush about the wonders of prayer but maybe by typing this out, it will serve as a reminder to seek Him instead of constantly looking to the left and right for answers all the time.

the week, of a nutcase, in a nutshell

YAY! I'M SO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPAYYEEE! :D

I've been on an adrenaline high (the unpleasant kind, mind you) for the past week due to the extra lectures to makeup for public holidays, Japanese Studies Project, the 2 French tests (which was so-so even though I felt that I could have done better for Oral), and the stooopid Stats Project, which not only caused a lack of sleep but significant hair loss (I could seriously see the increasing number of stray hairs on my shirt!). I'm not gonna see another "Gender and Book-carrying behaviour" experiment for good. The words are still swirling in my head man...

It felt as if my brain had to be on "thinking-mode" for the whole week, even though this should be the case, assuming that we should be "thinking" when we're in school but somehow, it made me think of a PC on hibernating mode with programs running in the background. And also, my right eye keeps twitching at random periods of the day for no particular reason...

Hmm..much as I'm relieved that this week is over, and Semester 2 finally coming to a close (save for exams), my behaviour this week was a little annoying, even to myself. I was more irritable than usual and got upset over the most trivial things and relapsed into the "in-your-face" kinda anti-social behaviour. Reminds me of one of the previous blog entries where I complained about my disgusting attitude too...hope this won't be a vicious cycle...

Anyway, I'm really grateful for my friends and the people around me who were very understanding and encouraging throughout the week. And I really have to thank God for Sarah, and subsequently Sylvia, who intervened at the right moment and assisting me with my Stats report. (At that time, I felt really helpless that I could not even identify the appropriate Statistics to run for my dataset that I asked God to find someone who would help me out. Turned out that the person He sent could not only provide much-needed help, but she took 3 out of the 4 modules I'm currently taking, coincidental or what?). On top of helping with the report, Sarah even gave me clues for the French tests, which she sat for earlier, which was really nice of her. Made me ponder about the "dog-eat-dog world" issue all over again...

Well, exams officially commences in 2 weeks' time and this week has really knocked some sense into me. However, I can feel myself getting more and more nonchalant about my academic state, which is quite worrying since exams are around the corner and the stuff I know about my 3 modules are insufficient to warrant a good grade. Sometimes I think I deserve to learn things the hard way man...

Besides that, this week was a rather eventful one. Tampines One is my new fave hangout cos Duc and I kept checking out the queue for Uniqlo (and wondering when we could ever go in, even though I kept suggesting that Plan B would have worked if we tried...haha!). Also, Sab and Maib went to g12 last Wednesday (so pai seh cos I was late that day when usually I would have so much time to kill!) and today was the ultimate cos I was out the whole day: school in the morning, lunch at Amoy, Tampines One (yet again), youth service, supper...

Found out that I was scheduled for Ladies' Basketball for the upcoming season. Wonder if I will survive the season, or even participate in it at all, cos Basketball is really no joke man. More scratches, more running, even though more pounds will be shed...

Arghh,really cannot take it anymore...that's all for now. Auditions tomorrow. Hope I've not made any decision that would cause me regret later on. Wish me luck! :D

YAY! I'm finally done with the Perfumes project! You cannot imagine how happy I was at 2pm today...one down,one more to go! :D

Received news that Midori has reached Florida safely already. She'll be there for four months for her attachment. g12 and Fridays will be unnaturally quiet without her around though...Anyway, if you happen to read this Midori, enjoy yourself ok? Don't forget us back home! :)


And I'm so proud of my brother (even though I'm still in a state of shock) that he is indisputably a guitar hero! His band got champion AGAIN for the second season of the "Zero to Hero" competition! My brother so coole worzxZxz!

So, being the inquisitive and ever-concerned older sister, I snooped around Facebook and found photos! (In case you were wondering, we didn't support him at the event cos he ran out of tickets to give us after giving them to his friends first. Such a loving brother!)

He vaguely reminds me of the promotional poster of "L" in "Detroit Metal City!"
Can't wait for the video of the event man...(Yeah, I know I sound too enthu but I rarely get to see my brother being so "alive and kickin" like this!) XD


Anyway, I'm glad that I went for Friday's youth service last week. The message was very apt, it was about love and dating: about overcoming your emotions and not letting it overwhelm you to the point that you get completely blinded by love, compromising your position as a child of God in the process. Sometimes, the temptations in this world can be hard to resist and we really have to be careful when it comes to choosing our life partner, especially at this age where the pressure to be attached is relatively high-at least to me.

To be honest, there are times when I wonder when the right one will come, how will he look like,etc...And I really hope that I won't let my heart rule over my head but it's tough at times...

"Finding someone who loves God and who loves you is worth the wait; no matter how long, no matter what it takes."

Seems like a tall order to fulfil but I guess I really have to trust in God. It's nice to love and be loved and appreciated by someone special but it will be disastrous (especially so for me, considering how emotional I am) if he's really not the right one for me.
My ideal relationship would be a sacrificial and, if possible, an unconditional one. One that transcends beyond the romance, one that goes beyond the superficiality of love relationships. A relationship that is mature, where both parties accept each other for who they are and, if necessary, put down their pride and change for the better. One in which mutual communication flows freely, where both parties identify with and share a mutual support of their visions and goals, a relationship that lasts...

Come to think of it, God is faithful and He knows me best. Even though it hurts to think about it, I have to say that what happened was done with my interests at heart and God was definitely aware of this much earlier than me.

There's still so much to learn and the maturation process is still evolving...Anyway, enough of that already lest I bore you...haha...

I miss Cui!!!

Cui! I can't find your call centre mugshot so this will do for the time being! XD

Ps: Rach, your turn next time! :P

My legs are aching (yet again). In normal circumstances when I'm sore,exhausted and aching all over, I would have been too lazy/tired to blog but I'm feeling in da' mood to do so...

First of all, I am content and VERY thankful for today's match. We were the underdogs! We thrashed Region B 35-8! Initially, I thought that this match would be a goner (honestly!) cos we were short of players and plus we were playing against Region B, who had a couple of netball players in their team so, the odds of winning were very promising for them. However, Hope came in the form of Crystal, Gloria and Faith, whom Pastor Quee Beng roped in to make up our numbers. All 3 of them are shooters (Gloria's from tpjc netball!) and it was really nice that the shots came fast and furious such that I didn't feel that I was working too hard on court. In fact, I actually wanted the ball to come to Defence (my side) just so I could work a little more, haha!
But Region B displayed good sportsmanship even though they knew they were on the losing edge, which was really admirable.

And I found out that Faith is actually Mr.Bok's niece! (Mr.Bok as in the fierce netball tyrant of a coach for secondary schools netball! He's like the "Nelson Kwei of netball", just many times worser cos of his temper and his reputation for being able to reduce the most aggressive and toughest player to tears!)

And of course, how can I not mention my virgin experience of running to/at Bedok Reservoir at night? Haha! All I can say was that the "warm up" prior to the run was comparable to secondary school training days due to "the refusal to embrace technology that's on your doorstep" by a certain someone!haha! (inside joke, for those who don't get it!)

Eugene's surprise birthday in the morning was not as successful as we thought it would be cos Eugene got smarter! HAHA! And as usual, he had to undergo his "series of unforgettable challenges" before he could get his present (panties, pills and a bag!)

Arrgghh..my eyelids are getting heavier...but before I end, I HAVE to get this off my chest...

Imogen Heap has been working very conscientiously on her new album for a very long time and I'm starting to get impatient.WHEN ISSIT COMING OUT?! I can't wait to hear and be inspired by her songs again, especially "Tidal."

She collaborated with a Hindi singer, of whom she holds in high regard, for this track. I get excited just thinking of the way she praises his vocals in a way that makes me want to listen to it immediately. Usually she'll sneak some previews of the songs she's working on on her vlog just to give us a feel of the album and how it will sound like but for THAT particular song, she intentionally refused to play parts with his vocals to keep us in suspense! GRRR!

And I just realised that "Imogen Heap" is supposed to be pronounced as "EE-MO-JERN" instead of "EE-MO-GURN."

I'm off!

Hello again!

I'm feeling terribly irritable today. I got upset/annoyed by the smallest things my friends did/said. I couldn't concentrate in lecture at all and even though I was listening to the lecturer, I wasn't comprehending what she said and I was spacing out more than usual! The worse thing was I didn't feel like socialising today cos normally I would at least try and make an effort to create small talk with acquaintances or people I've just met/been introduced to but I didn't feel like it today totally.
Maybe it's the feeling of going back to school again: "journey-ing to the West" all the time, climbing those dreaded slopes, inclines,hills and staircases in school,meeting up for projects and catching up on readings, hating the feeling that my eyes get dry and my face gets very oily whenever I'm in school, running after buses, etc...(Okok, I should count my blessings...at least I'm not starving and dying under the hot sun in my makeshift cardboard house in Africa...)

But at least I'm not feeling as cranky, now that I'm home - all showered and reclined in a comfortable position, typing this..haha...(sometimes I don't understand my moodswings...)

Mid-sem break's over and I felt like I haven't done any "proper resting" yet. If I had to summarise what I've done for the break and give it a name, it will be called "minor hassles and annoyances" week. Aside from Dhab's departure and the Perfumes project meeting, which isn't a hassle because it has to be done, I felt that the rest of my time was spent doing things that I didn't enjoy due to obligations and answering to certain people whom I'm starting to get really annoyed with, REALLY annoyed. You and you, stop bothering me with your talk of dreams and success, serious! I know you mean well but you don't have to resort to such tactics to get me in.

Anyway, I'm quite happy and satisfied cos I achieved a new first yesterday! I completed a 10-km run in approximately 1 hour 10mins! :D
Even though I almost vomited at the finishing line - ALMOST but I swallowed it back, thank God that the weather was perfect at that time, I had stitches which were insignificant enough to cause pain (although I discovered new areas in my body where I could get stitches) and I didn't walk, which was an achievement for me cos I wasn't really prepared for the run.
I knew my body was still doing fine at the 5-km marker but when I hit 8-km, I couldn't feel my legs at all and my toes seemed to be separate entities, moving grudgingly against my will. Nat was invincible -no complications, unlike me with stitches and bouts of nausea. He was the Speed Racer of the day, charging full throttle and overtaking others without a care in the world, right Nat? :P

I gained a new insight that day: Never look down on old people (old=45 years old and above). Even though they started 15 minutes later than the youth category, many ah pehs and some aunties overtook me. One uncle, who overtook me, even had the energy to advise me to "swing my arms" and not rest them on my hips! I salute them man....

On another note, I couldn't walk properly today cos the joints at my knees are aching terribly and climbing stairs was a burden. Butt muscles are most likely to hurt next too, I can feel it...

OK, gotta' go! Craving for some nice,cold chocolate milk now :D

to everything, there is a season...

This was supposed to be a much happier and sentimental post but because of my stoooopid laptop case, it just ruined everything! 'Just discovered that my new, chio and flamboyant laptop case IS NOT OF THE RIGHT SIZE!!! (short of a few more inches!) and the best thing is that I can't ask for a refund, neither can I exchange it for a bigger size!! I think Yee, Dhab and Cui will just explode if they know about this cos they accompanied me to find the case (of which I took ages to decide on).

Breathe in, breathe out.....arghhhh!!!!

OK! Anyway, the month of February has not been a very satisfying one, mostly due to some stupid issues and school, of which I have not been really motivated to study as hard as I'm supposed to be, but I won't delve into that now.

Another reason would be due to the fact that some of the most cherished people in my life would soon be leaving for greener pastures (or so it seems cos I'm in an escapist mood right now and anywhere would seem better than Singapore at the moment).

Rachel, you've been a really, really wonderful friend to have: one whom I can just joke and laugh and be wild with without feeling embarrassed or conscious about. Come to think of it, you added the extra zest to JC life: your screaming and suaning and butt-smacking (how can you and I EVER forget that) and last-min homework and all the endless laughter.

Even though all these took place within a short period of less than 2 years, it was enough to make class life in JC extra enjoyable. Didn't realise the extent of how awkward it would be to know that you'll not be on local soil for a long time to come, until the dinner a few weeks back. You'll be greatly missed, panic partner! Come back and visit during the hols! :)


AND Cui, all this while I have been living in some sort of self-denial, telling myself that you're only leaving a few months later. Months became weeks, which gradually were reduced to days and thinking about it really makes me feel sad now. No more random dates after school to your place, no more live music with you and Ngak (heh heh), ranting and raving sessions would not be as convenient as before now that you're gone :(

Anyway, I can't emphasise enough how much you mean to me after all these years. We've seen each other grow and (hopefully) mature through secondary school, shared our new experiences gained during JC and now,we're embarking on another stage of our life (makes me think about the marriage/children list we had back in secondary school with the rest man!). Hmm, feels weird telling you this through my blog instead of a letter but at least you get to see it still (and you wouldn't lose it, like how you lost my previous letter!).

OK, I think I better stop here before I get too emotional. Don't forget us when you're there ok? And you better come back often to see us hor! It's an order! :D


Also, Dhab! 'Know you're leaving next week but I enjoyed spending time with you too! Hope you feel likewise even though many things have changed since the last time you were in SG. Hopefully the Melbourne trip in July will be a success 'cos the only obstacle (and probably the biggest one) would be my parents but nevertheless, I'll try my best to persuade them. Until then! :D

Can't wait to leave Singapore man.

Meet Logan, The Sky Angel Cowboy - CBN News

Very inspirational....Despite his age, God still uses him to bless and touch so many people around the world. A very good example of how children can be used by God in their own special way :)

getting into the thick of things...

Hellooo....actually I'm quite reluctant to post an entry now but since I have nothing much to do while waiting for my hair to dry, I'll just update you on what's happening now (if anyone is actually reading this at all...haha...)

Hmm, I'm sure some of you already know that my timetable for this Semester is crazy: I'll be going to school everyday as opposed to last Sem in which I had a free day and shorter hours. AND compared to last Sem, my current modules are not as interesting as last Sem's (I'm doing Stats and research methods for Psych, Japanese Studies, Geog (again),French, and Perfumes and Cosmetics). Japanese Studies was a Faculty requirement and Geog was a module taken out of desperation.So far, what I thought would be interesting was not, due to the lecturer - the Perfumes and Cosmetics one - and what might be boring -Stats, without a doubt - seemed to provide a glimmer of hope. As for French, lectures only start next week so hopefully it will make going to school a more enjoyable experience.
AND for Geog alone we have 4 projects, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?! Anyway, I'm just gonna leave it to God, even though it's easier said than done, and try not to put so much stress on myself whenever I picture my timetable in my mind...


Oh ya..I got a new laptop! It's the same as Joan's, a Fujitsu S Series which costs the same as hers (I overlooked the GST Component!) and no, it doesn't have a name yet (in case you were still wondering, Duc). Even though it's not as nice and chic as the Macbook or even the Toshiba Protege, it seems more durable and reliable. Moreover, I have SO much more freedom! No fights and hassles with the little emo Emperor of the house and the speed is sooo much faster! My files are more organised and I can classify files and data the way I want it to be done! :D

Anyway, today was really an experience indeed. I decided to participate in my church's Netball Superleague cos this is the first time that Netball was introduced into the Heart.Sports category and I haven't played Netball for Ages (excluding the NUS Recre Netball days which were quite numbered and non-existent). As usual, the adrenaline rush came naturally and I was really very excited to play after so long. Midori felt more jittery than usual maybe cos she's the captain..haha...

We lost the match with Region C but the latter deserved to win anyway. Felt quite guilty after the match cos I shouted at my Goal Defense cos she was not helping me in the semi-D and in my third of the court at all. Hmm...come to think of it, this seems to be a recurrent problem that I face whenever I play cos whenever I go on court, I'm a different person:more aggressive and impatient,playing my best and expecting people to play their best too. It's good for the game but people may get the wrong impression afterwards.

Pastor Chian got Virnice and I to referee the game after ours. Their players were really aggressive and the game had more momentum

It was quite comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling guilty after a game cos of what happened on court. Seemed like people were apologising to each other after every match too...Well, let's just hope and pray that Region A (that's my region) will get their act together and by that I mean, playing their best cos winning really isn't everything. Anyway, quite deadbeat now...leg muscles are aching and the left knee feels a bit worn out....till next time!

Glutton Alert!

Bidding is seriously getting on my nerves!!! Why can't the system be more idiot-proof or, at the very least, organised?!

Well, thank God for the Internet-at least I could seek solace from my greatest love,FOOD! :D



Sources: food pornographer,gainhub, jimmychin.net, joy of baking, masak-masak, milk and cookies, sopressata

Scouring food blogs can be very therapeutic. Besides acting as a form of catharsis, it is a slightly low-down version of satisfying yourself without feeling the immediate guilt that you would feel if you binge (unless of course you binge immediately after reading them).

Also proves that I have a loooong way to go in my pursuit of creating not just edible food but that which is appealing to both the senses and the stomach.

And even though we're quite blessed with the variety of food here in Singapore, there's so much more which we have yet to discover with regards to food man...Imagine having the privilege to traverse the globe and trying out and reviewing different types of food:from the eccentric to the extravagant, their take on gourmet fare to their definition of comfort food, that would be my idea of THE dream job!

Time for a Reality check. Biddinggggg.....

As long as I can secure my 5 modules (which are interesting and manageable), and as long as I have one free day in my timetable for this coming semester, I'm happy enough.

2 more precious days till school starts....

to a loved one...

First things first, I disobeyed your order to read it before I sleep 'cos the offer was too tempting. What's with the rule of reading it only before I sleep anyway? You're making me have insomnia that way ok! :P

Anyway, your letter was a nice surprise, really...very encouraging (don't roll your eyes!) so, to ensure that your efforts won't go to waste, here's your reply(Disclaimer: In case you haven't noticed, Gemini is a double entity and likewise, I'm not that good with words too so, don't worry about that!).

Honestly speaking, I didn't know I was THAT significant to you, haha! I've been very blessed to know someone like you too. You've been equally, if not more, generous when it comes to spending time and money with me. Know something? I don't know why but somehow I tend to feel guilty when I'm out with you cos you seem to be paying for everything most of the time and also for listening to my rants and complaints, which are trivial compared to the problems you are facing now.

I admire your courage, your open-mindedness as well as your receptiveness in handling the things and the people around you. You've been as understanding and supportive in helping me with my decision-making, not forgetting your honesty, which can be difficult to convey to a friend as the truth hurts sometimes. I guess I still have a long way to go with regards to my self-esteem (as a boring person) and I'm actually quite surprised to see that you think otherwise 'cos you're wayyy more interesting than me man....

Truth be told, I enjoy spending time with you, really. I don't know about you but it seems to me that everywhere I go, there's surely one thing around, wherever I might be at that moment, that reminds me that we've "been there, done that" (if you know what I mean). Like what you've mentioned, we've done everything under the sun from food to fashion, music to movies (PS: "Twilight" is overrated and Russell Wong's cool okaye!?), from our recent fetish on staying fit to our innate love for lit.

Just to share with you, THAT night at the park was one of the best moments of Year 2008. (You remember it too, don't you?) I like the fact that we were oblivious to the people around us, especially your favourite SIM dragonboating hunk at the fitness corner, and were happy just sitting there and belting out whatever songs that came to our mind etc. Even our rendition of the National Day Songs (complete with our brand of alarming dance moves a la High School Musical cum MTV-style) was enough to make my day. Guess I could say that was one of the times I felt like myself again,haha....

Also, I really appreciate your willingness and your concern with regards to listening to my problems. The reason why I might seem reluctant to share about my issues is due to the fact that I'm inherently a cautious and reserved person (if you aren't already aware of it) and it can be quite hard to share my problems just like that but I promise I'll be more open with you about my stuff ok?

Most of all, I admire the love and concern you have for your family. I really don't know what to say...

And, and, and....don't ever think that you're insignificant to me 'cos you're not! Friendship cannot be computed in economical terms. Having more friends does not mean that the value of regard one feels for each friend shrinks like Economies of Scale (EOS) ok...Quantity does not equate to quality.

I hate to think that you perceive yourself as someone with no determination and diligence cos I believe that you do have these qualities. It's just that you do not realise it and actualise it as much yet. You might not be aware of it but your easy personality makes people around you feel at ease. That is also the reason why you should not be feeling depressed cos it really rubs off on the other party and you're only making me worry more.

I know it seems inappropriate to add this but my deepest desire is to see you getting out of your depressed psyche and taking control of your life cos it really hurts to see you suffering but not being able to help you as much as I'd liked to. I know I have no right to say this but I really wish that you'll see Life through a different lens, not as the dark and pessimistic one you deem it to be but that of one with endless possibilities, where things are fluid and ever-changing.

And much as I want to be there for you all the time, I know it is impossible due to my limited capacities as a human but I'd like you to know that you'll be a constant in my prayers and that God loves you and is always there to listen to you.

Finally, even though I mentioned earlier that this is a reply to your letter, and like all replies one has to be compelled to write stuff like that, take heart that everything comes from the heart and that I truly feel this way, even though I don't express it openly to you.

I really hope that this year (as well as in many other years to come) will be a booster to our friendship :D

PS: Quite random, but you are not banned from my blog now (I felt that I need to say this cos it would be quite unfair if I deny you access, at this point of our friendship, right?)