This is becoming really draining...I really wish that Choir Concert would come and go quickly. Seriously, everyday this week (week 10) is just a vicious cycle. It's as if the intent behind all these is to anticipate the day when your body just can't take it anymore and collapse or something.
Anyway, after the internal struggle between me and myself, I've finally decided not to go for the Pattaya trip. It's not that I really don't want to go or, according to Nelson's viewpoint, that I hate TPJChoir, but that my studies call for my attention.
NUS Psychology seems like a far-fetched idea for now...
OK, I'm not going to start moaning about the standard of my schoolwork and tests now 'cos it would demoralize me further.
For all the opportunity costs incurred such as lagging behind in the area of academics and whatnot, we get to sing with confidence (a debatable point here I must say) without holding scores, together with choreography and hopefully, dynamics and emotions (though I seriously believe that the emotion that we can express involuntarily now is exhaustion.)
And I realized that practices everyday is really making me go insane to the point where I exhibit extreme emotions such as isolation from current society (Lit students, revision for Poe stories, please.)
My anti-social tendencies are coming into full swing again. It's not that I don't want to but I can't help it: I'm already so deadbeat that even if I say anything, it wouldn't be that useful anyway. It's like it becomes increasingly hard to even smile genuinely when someone tells a joke or show empathy (much less give advice) to a friend who shares her troubles with you. Every little thing irritates me. The mood swings are so common that people are starting to link it to my personality (or so I feel). Argh...I feel superficial. And I can't even act like my normal self.
Ok, I'm sounding like how I should sound for my age: ever the angsty, emotional teen.
Choreography for “Sin Sin” wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. The difficulty doesn't lie with coming up with the actions itself but whether the Choir would be sporty enough to actually perform it. I mean it really wasn't easy for Sochenda, George and Seng Juong, plus many others who have helped out in the brainstorming of actions, to come up with the choreography and I believe they are doing it with the Choir's interests at heart so, we should really just be agreeable to what they have proposed, unless of course we have better ideas upon which we can suggest...
Speaking of “Sin Sin”, it's the only song I look forward to in Choir now. Hmm, then again it's the Choir's all-time favourite song. Ok, maybe “Ja vem Primavera” and “Vita de la mia Vita” aren't too bad either. It's just that singing “Sin Sin” itself is a challenge (initially) due to the tongue-twisters that make up 99.9999% of the song! And although I've said it many times, the Basses get the nicest part of the song! Nevertheless, at least we get to perform it. =)
“Sin Sin Si Batu Manikam dipat joget sor mardi gotem...”
