Ok...I don't know what to make of this but I know that I was in the wrong and that there was really a miscommunication problem of sorts...what I don't get is why the sudden paranoia about my social life. I really don't get it. I mean,yes, I have to admit that I was in the wrong to even do something without first seeking your permission, that I had taken it for granted and felt that this would mean nothing anyway but you, on your part, should not have exaggerated things and come to a conclusion that "something's wrong with my attitude these days." It's only one incident,for goodness' sake!

Plus I didn't like the fact that you kept inquiring about things and getting all paranoid and decided, based on this one and only incident, that your eldest daughter (who is usually well-behaved and mature-well, at least that's what I think you think of me) could even think of doing such things, even after I compromised a great deal while struggling to maintain my composure.

I really wanna make things clear to you, and to all those out there who judge me based on what they see and hear: everyone makes mistakes. And that doesn't mean that people who are nice and mature are excluded from this category. Don't be surprised if I say or do something that you wouldn't expect me to do. How well do you know me anyway?

Even after 18 years, sad to say, do you even care about me anyway? You're so busy doing your own thing, seeming to care more about the rest than me 'cos you were confident that I was "mature enough" to settle my own stuff and all but you failed to realise that I'm a human with emotional needs too. Call that selfish but I thought that's what a relationship should constitute-sharing and carrying each other's burdens and building each other up through encouragement and all....I only need your understanding,is that really too much to ask for?

Dear God, I really want things to be better. I acknowledge my mistakes and understand that all these happened as she was woried and all but she was in the wrong too and it hurts to hear her say things which are not true to how I really feel. I really need your divine intervention now...

Anyway, thanks Samantha, for comforting me and all and even making a radio dedication...if only she was that understanding...