Hellooo....actually I'm quite reluctant to post an entry now but since I have nothing much to do while waiting for my hair to dry, I'll just update you on what's happening now (if anyone is actually reading this at all...haha...)
Hmm, I'm sure some of you already know that my timetable for this Semester is crazy: I'll be going to school everyday as opposed to last Sem in which I had a free day and shorter hours. AND compared to last Sem, my current modules are not as interesting as last Sem's (I'm doing Stats and research methods for Psych, Japanese Studies, Geog (again),French, and Perfumes and Cosmetics). Japanese Studies was a Faculty requirement and Geog was a module taken out of desperation.So far, what I thought would be interesting was not, due to the lecturer - the Perfumes and Cosmetics one - and what might be boring -Stats, without a doubt - seemed to provide a glimmer of hope. As for French, lectures only start next week so hopefully it will make going to school a more enjoyable experience.
AND for Geog alone we have 4 projects, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?! Anyway, I'm just gonna leave it to God, even though it's easier said than done, and try not to put so much stress on myself whenever I picture my timetable in my mind...
Oh ya..I got a new laptop! It's the same as Joan's, a Fujitsu S Series which costs the same as hers (I overlooked the GST Component!) and no, it doesn't have a name yet (in case you were still wondering, Duc). Even though it's not as nice and chic as the Macbook or even the Toshiba Protege, it seems more durable and reliable. Moreover, I have SO much more freedom! No fights and hassles with the little emo Emperor of the house and the speed is sooo much faster! My files are more organised and I can classify files and data the way I want it to be done! :D
Anyway, today was really an experience indeed. I decided to participate in my church's Netball Superleague cos this is the first time that Netball was introduced into the Heart.Sports category and I haven't played Netball for Ages (excluding the NUS Recre Netball days which were quite numbered and non-existent). As usual, the adrenaline rush came naturally and I was really very excited to play after so long. Midori felt more jittery than usual maybe cos she's the captain..haha...
We lost the match with Region C but the latter deserved to win anyway. Felt quite guilty after the match cos I shouted at my Goal Defense cos she was not helping me in the semi-D and in my third of the court at all. Hmm...come to think of it, this seems to be a recurrent problem that I face whenever I play cos whenever I go on court, I'm a different person:more aggressive and impatient,playing my best and expecting people to play their best too. It's good for the game but people may get the wrong impression afterwards.
Pastor Chian got Virnice and I to referee the game after ours. Their players were really aggressive and the game had more momentum
It was quite comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling guilty after a game cos of what happened on court. Seemed like people were apologising to each other after every match too...Well, let's just hope and pray that Region A (that's my region) will get their act together and by that I mean, playing their best cos winning really isn't everything. Anyway, quite deadbeat now...leg muscles are aching and the left knee feels a bit worn out....till next time!
17 January, 2009
09 January, 2009
Glutton Alert!
Bidding is seriously getting on my nerves!!! Why can't the system be more idiot-proof or, at the very least, organised?!
Well, thank God for the Internet-at least I could seek solace from my greatest love,FOOD! :D
Sources: food pornographer,gainhub, jimmychin.net, joy of baking, masak-masak, milk and cookies, sopressata
Scouring food blogs can be very therapeutic. Besides acting as a form of catharsis, it is a slightly low-down version of satisfying yourself without feeling the immediate guilt that you would feel if you binge (unless of course you binge immediately after reading them).
Also proves that I have a loooong way to go in my pursuit of creating not just edible food but that which is appealing to both the senses and the stomach.
And even though we're quite blessed with the variety of food here in Singapore, there's so much more which we have yet to discover with regards to food man...Imagine having the privilege to traverse the globe and trying out and reviewing different types of food:from the eccentric to the extravagant, their take on gourmet fare to their definition of comfort food, that would be my idea of THE dream job!
Time for a Reality check. Biddinggggg.....
As long as I can secure my 5 modules (which are interesting and manageable), and as long as I have one free day in my timetable for this coming semester, I'm happy enough.
2 more precious days till school starts....
Well, thank God for the Internet-at least I could seek solace from my greatest love,FOOD! :D
Sources: food pornographer,gainhub, jimmychin.net, joy of baking, masak-masak, milk and cookies, sopressata
Scouring food blogs can be very therapeutic. Besides acting as a form of catharsis, it is a slightly low-down version of satisfying yourself without feeling the immediate guilt that you would feel if you binge (unless of course you binge immediately after reading them).
Also proves that I have a loooong way to go in my pursuit of creating not just edible food but that which is appealing to both the senses and the stomach.
And even though we're quite blessed with the variety of food here in Singapore, there's so much more which we have yet to discover with regards to food man...Imagine having the privilege to traverse the globe and trying out and reviewing different types of food:from the eccentric to the extravagant, their take on gourmet fare to their definition of comfort food, that would be my idea of THE dream job!
Time for a Reality check. Biddinggggg.....
As long as I can secure my 5 modules (which are interesting and manageable), and as long as I have one free day in my timetable for this coming semester, I'm happy enough.
2 more precious days till school starts....
02 January, 2009
to a loved one...
First things first, I disobeyed your order to read it before I sleep 'cos the offer was too tempting. What's with the rule of reading it only before I sleep anyway? You're making me have insomnia that way ok! :P
Anyway, your letter was a nice surprise, really...very encouraging (don't roll your eyes!) so, to ensure that your efforts won't go to waste, here's your reply(Disclaimer: In case you haven't noticed, Gemini is a double entity and likewise, I'm not that good with words too so, don't worry about that!).
Honestly speaking, I didn't know I was THAT significant to you, haha! I've been very blessed to know someone like you too. You've been equally, if not more, generous when it comes to spending time and money with me. Know something? I don't know why but somehow I tend to feel guilty when I'm out with you cos you seem to be paying for everything most of the time and also for listening to my rants and complaints, which are trivial compared to the problems you are facing now.
I admire your courage, your open-mindedness as well as your receptiveness in handling the things and the people around you. You've been as understanding and supportive in helping me with my decision-making, not forgetting your honesty, which can be difficult to convey to a friend as the truth hurts sometimes. I guess I still have a long way to go with regards to my self-esteem (as a boring person) and I'm actually quite surprised to see that you think otherwise 'cos you're wayyy more interesting than me man....
Truth be told, I enjoy spending time with you, really. I don't know about you but it seems to me that everywhere I go, there's surely one thing around, wherever I might be at that moment, that reminds me that we've "been there, done that" (if you know what I mean). Like what you've mentioned, we've done everything under the sun from food to fashion, music to movies (PS: "Twilight" is overrated and Russell Wong's cool okaye!?), from our recent fetish on staying fit to our innate love for lit.
Just to share with you, THAT night at the park was one of the best moments of Year 2008. (You remember it too, don't you?) I like the fact that we were oblivious to the people around us, especially your favourite SIM dragonboating hunk at the fitness corner, and were happy just sitting there and belting out whatever songs that came to our mind etc. Even our rendition of the National Day Songs (complete with our brand of alarming dance moves a la High School Musical cum MTV-style) was enough to make my day. Guess I could say that was one of the times I felt like myself again,haha....
Also, I really appreciate your willingness and your concern with regards to listening to my problems. The reason why I might seem reluctant to share about my issues is due to the fact that I'm inherently a cautious and reserved person (if you aren't already aware of it) and it can be quite hard to share my problems just like that but I promise I'll be more open with you about my stuff ok?
Most of all, I admire the love and concern you have for your family. I really don't know what to say...
And, and, and....don't ever think that you're insignificant to me 'cos you're not! Friendship cannot be computed in economical terms. Having more friends does not mean that the value of regard one feels for each friend shrinks like Economies of Scale (EOS) ok...Quantity does not equate to quality.
I hate to think that you perceive yourself as someone with no determination and diligence cos I believe that you do have these qualities. It's just that you do not realise it and actualise it as much yet. You might not be aware of it but your easy personality makes people around you feel at ease. That is also the reason why you should not be feeling depressed cos it really rubs off on the other party and you're only making me worry more.
I know it seems inappropriate to add this but my deepest desire is to see you getting out of your depressed psyche and taking control of your life cos it really hurts to see you suffering but not being able to help you as much as I'd liked to. I know I have no right to say this but I really wish that you'll see Life through a different lens, not as the dark and pessimistic one you deem it to be but that of one with endless possibilities, where things are fluid and ever-changing.
And much as I want to be there for you all the time, I know it is impossible due to my limited capacities as a human but I'd like you to know that you'll be a constant in my prayers and that God loves you and is always there to listen to you.
Finally, even though I mentioned earlier that this is a reply to your letter, and like all replies one has to be compelled to write stuff like that, take heart that everything comes from the heart and that I truly feel this way, even though I don't express it openly to you.
I really hope that this year (as well as in many other years to come) will be a booster to our friendship :D
PS: Quite random, but you are not banned from my blog now (I felt that I need to say this cos it would be quite unfair if I deny you access, at this point of our friendship, right?)
Anyway, your letter was a nice surprise, really...very encouraging (don't roll your eyes!) so, to ensure that your efforts won't go to waste, here's your reply(Disclaimer: In case you haven't noticed, Gemini is a double entity and likewise, I'm not that good with words too so, don't worry about that!).
Honestly speaking, I didn't know I was THAT significant to you, haha! I've been very blessed to know someone like you too. You've been equally, if not more, generous when it comes to spending time and money with me. Know something? I don't know why but somehow I tend to feel guilty when I'm out with you cos you seem to be paying for everything most of the time and also for listening to my rants and complaints, which are trivial compared to the problems you are facing now.
I admire your courage, your open-mindedness as well as your receptiveness in handling the things and the people around you. You've been as understanding and supportive in helping me with my decision-making, not forgetting your honesty, which can be difficult to convey to a friend as the truth hurts sometimes. I guess I still have a long way to go with regards to my self-esteem (as a boring person) and I'm actually quite surprised to see that you think otherwise 'cos you're wayyy more interesting than me man....
Truth be told, I enjoy spending time with you, really. I don't know about you but it seems to me that everywhere I go, there's surely one thing around, wherever I might be at that moment, that reminds me that we've "been there, done that" (if you know what I mean). Like what you've mentioned, we've done everything under the sun from food to fashion, music to movies (PS: "Twilight" is overrated and Russell Wong's cool okaye!?), from our recent fetish on staying fit to our innate love for lit.
Just to share with you, THAT night at the park was one of the best moments of Year 2008. (You remember it too, don't you?) I like the fact that we were oblivious to the people around us, especially your favourite SIM dragonboating hunk at the fitness corner, and were happy just sitting there and belting out whatever songs that came to our mind etc. Even our rendition of the National Day Songs (complete with our brand of alarming dance moves a la High School Musical cum MTV-style) was enough to make my day. Guess I could say that was one of the times I felt like myself again,haha....
Also, I really appreciate your willingness and your concern with regards to listening to my problems. The reason why I might seem reluctant to share about my issues is due to the fact that I'm inherently a cautious and reserved person (if you aren't already aware of it) and it can be quite hard to share my problems just like that but I promise I'll be more open with you about my stuff ok?
Most of all, I admire the love and concern you have for your family. I really don't know what to say...
And, and, and....don't ever think that you're insignificant to me 'cos you're not! Friendship cannot be computed in economical terms. Having more friends does not mean that the value of regard one feels for each friend shrinks like Economies of Scale (EOS) ok...Quantity does not equate to quality.
I hate to think that you perceive yourself as someone with no determination and diligence cos I believe that you do have these qualities. It's just that you do not realise it and actualise it as much yet. You might not be aware of it but your easy personality makes people around you feel at ease. That is also the reason why you should not be feeling depressed cos it really rubs off on the other party and you're only making me worry more.
I know it seems inappropriate to add this but my deepest desire is to see you getting out of your depressed psyche and taking control of your life cos it really hurts to see you suffering but not being able to help you as much as I'd liked to. I know I have no right to say this but I really wish that you'll see Life through a different lens, not as the dark and pessimistic one you deem it to be but that of one with endless possibilities, where things are fluid and ever-changing.
And much as I want to be there for you all the time, I know it is impossible due to my limited capacities as a human but I'd like you to know that you'll be a constant in my prayers and that God loves you and is always there to listen to you.
Finally, even though I mentioned earlier that this is a reply to your letter, and like all replies one has to be compelled to write stuff like that, take heart that everything comes from the heart and that I truly feel this way, even though I don't express it openly to you.
I really hope that this year (as well as in many other years to come) will be a booster to our friendship :D
PS: Quite random, but you are not banned from my blog now (I felt that I need to say this cos it would be quite unfair if I deny you access, at this point of our friendship, right?)
29 December, 2008
cognitive vomit
Arghh...can't believe holidays are almost coming to an end. Seems like the days after exam were just a myriad of activities: shopping, going out, meeting up,exercising,etc...
I have to say that this Christmas was one of the busiest Christmases I've ever had for the whole 19 years of my life. I didn't realise that being involved in the youth Christmas event for church could take up such a substantial amount of time even though my role was quite minor (At this point, I really salute the Pastors and church people for always giving their 101% to the events to make it a memorable one!).
I think I'm feeling the after effects of Christmas already: physical and mental burnout, a deep gaping hole in my pocket, not to mention the fact that I can feel a slight fever building up.
Hmmm...should really start taking care of myself cos I've been pushing my physical and mental faculties way past the limit but come to think of it,I have no regrets. Sounds cliche but I realised that giving is indeed better than receiving. Up to now, I didn't really understand its significance but somehow this Christmas, it hit me in a way I didn't realise before.
For this Christmas, I decided to go wholesale and baked stuff for 85% of my family and friends cos it's faster and more personal, I guess. Didn't realise that a simple cake/brownie could make someone's day more than I thought :)
Well, as for the downside of Christmas, I felt that I was not spending enough time with my family and I know that mum is kinda upset about that, especially the Christmas shopping part. 'Know my aunties are also kinda disappointed with me about some stuff but it's not as if I can help it. I really tried and even talked to God about it and stuff but sometimes it's good that you don't add any additional pressure. It'll only result in the reverse effect. Nevertheless, I'm glad that the Christmas party sorta gave us a neutral ground to start all over again and stuff...
Besides family, I felt that I have not been fair to some of my friends with regards to spending more time with them and stuff due to my other activities and I'm feeling guilty all over again. Dhab, you're seriously one of the most generous friends I've ever met and your selflessness always makes me feel bad. The treat at Seoul Garden's on us, ok? Besides Dhab, there are many others whom I felt I could have met up with more often. I can even see the names running through my mind now :(
Anyway, bidding starts tomorrow and I'm really dreading it. It's as if we are voluntarily signing up for another 5 months of torture (not to mention, competing with others to secure our most desired suffering) and if we make a mistake in bidding for an inappropriate module (our channel of suffering), we'll endure additional bouts of pain. Sounds theatrically angsty right? But I'm not kidding - I've never detested going back to school so much in my life. At least you can look forward to seeing old, familiar and mostly friendly faces in pri/sec school and JC but uni's seriously different. Everyone seems superficial and too "mature" to break out of their superior, intellectual mould (whether genuine or not) such that you can really get a glimpse of who they really were before entering uni and stuff.
Anyway, truth be told, I'm not sure why I keep having this urge to stay away from the house as much as possible and delay my return trips home. Maybe I do know why and am in self-denial but I just hope things will be clearer soon. God, I need you now more than ever before...
I have to say that this Christmas was one of the busiest Christmases I've ever had for the whole 19 years of my life. I didn't realise that being involved in the youth Christmas event for church could take up such a substantial amount of time even though my role was quite minor (At this point, I really salute the Pastors and church people for always giving their 101% to the events to make it a memorable one!).
I think I'm feeling the after effects of Christmas already: physical and mental burnout, a deep gaping hole in my pocket, not to mention the fact that I can feel a slight fever building up.
Hmmm...should really start taking care of myself cos I've been pushing my physical and mental faculties way past the limit but come to think of it,I have no regrets. Sounds cliche but I realised that giving is indeed better than receiving. Up to now, I didn't really understand its significance but somehow this Christmas, it hit me in a way I didn't realise before.
For this Christmas, I decided to go wholesale and baked stuff for 85% of my family and friends cos it's faster and more personal, I guess. Didn't realise that a simple cake/brownie could make someone's day more than I thought :)
Well, as for the downside of Christmas, I felt that I was not spending enough time with my family and I know that mum is kinda upset about that, especially the Christmas shopping part. 'Know my aunties are also kinda disappointed with me about some stuff but it's not as if I can help it. I really tried and even talked to God about it and stuff but sometimes it's good that you don't add any additional pressure. It'll only result in the reverse effect. Nevertheless, I'm glad that the Christmas party sorta gave us a neutral ground to start all over again and stuff...
Besides family, I felt that I have not been fair to some of my friends with regards to spending more time with them and stuff due to my other activities and I'm feeling guilty all over again. Dhab, you're seriously one of the most generous friends I've ever met and your selflessness always makes me feel bad. The treat at Seoul Garden's on us, ok? Besides Dhab, there are many others whom I felt I could have met up with more often. I can even see the names running through my mind now :(
Anyway, bidding starts tomorrow and I'm really dreading it. It's as if we are voluntarily signing up for another 5 months of torture (not to mention, competing with others to secure our most desired suffering) and if we make a mistake in bidding for an inappropriate module (our channel of suffering), we'll endure additional bouts of pain. Sounds theatrically angsty right? But I'm not kidding - I've never detested going back to school so much in my life. At least you can look forward to seeing old, familiar and mostly friendly faces in pri/sec school and JC but uni's seriously different. Everyone seems superficial and too "mature" to break out of their superior, intellectual mould (whether genuine or not) such that you can really get a glimpse of who they really were before entering uni and stuff.
Anyway, truth be told, I'm not sure why I keep having this urge to stay away from the house as much as possible and delay my return trips home. Maybe I do know why and am in self-denial but I just hope things will be clearer soon. God, I need you now more than ever before...
17 December, 2008
"it's been a long time"
Gathering with the primary school clique. Thought it was gonna be quite awkward at first but then it turned out rather well! One good thing about meeting up with friends that date back to as early as Primary School is that you know how/what the person was like -funny quirks, childish acts and all- before he/she becomes who they are now: individuals whose characters are constantly shaped by the people and environment around them. All 3 have obviously changed over the years but I'm quite glad that certain traits still remain. Hui Yun's mannerisms were more or less the same, Ashley's still as quiet and reserved and Moses is like a boy stuck in a man's body! I think the phrase "same old brand new you" aptly describes how I felt when I first saw them...heh heh :D
It was really refreshing to see them again, quite a nice break from current events and I seriously miss all of them, or rather, I miss those days when things were much more simpler and life was more carefree. Of course, there are certain things which I would prefer not to repeat all over again, but then such things do happen. The only thing that matters is how you respond and learn from them.Anyway, serious stuff aside, it's quite scary to see them all shooting up like tao gay man! First time in my life when I'm actually the shortest amongst my friends, not that I'm very tall already but then I'm always "of average height!"
Still feeling a little guilty that I have not done some things yet...sometimes I think I should not make any promises at all...
09 December, 2008
Josh Groban: 60th Annual Emmy Awards
WOOHOOO! JOSH GROBAN AS YOU'VE NEVER SEEN HIM BEFORE! I like the Southpark imitation! :D
AHH! Can't believe I found it but thanks to "Josh Groban Lovers" from Facebook, I stumbled unto (guess what) Mr Groban's very own, personal blog! OK, I know this sounds stupid and very fan-like but it kinda feels like he's talking straight to me! OoOo! :D:D
AND of course I'm not forgetting him, especially after hearing him serenade to Ai Ping and me at East Coast Park today, so he'll definitely be there under my links! He's still ZE Best of ZE Best !
Speaking of Josh Groban, I remembered one night when I was very in the mood to listen to him so I played his CD and sang myself to sleep when suddenly my Dad walked into the room and told Josh to quieten down cos it's "so late and he shouldn't be singing too loudly." You can't imagine how sad Josh felt (heh heh. OK, a lil' fan obssession here).
Hmm...other than that, I had a great time today, just spending time and chilling out. But I'm quite glad that the fitness plan is working! (All thanks to Duc and Zhiyi!) They've been great motivators and we've started meeting up to jog and stuff. Hope this continues though and by the way, I'm not a fitness nut/freak/guru/buff just because I'm jogging on a regular basis but I feel "fat, corpulent and oily" nowadays...heh heh...just be glad that I'm not doing the whole slimming-by-dieting-and-then-bingeing-later-on thing. I still eat my regular meals and on top of that, I'm not forgetting the daily dose of Chocolate ice-cream so, good news for people who want to stay slim and who love to indulge in food at the same time: just jog, it really works!
AND of course I'm not forgetting him, especially after hearing him serenade to Ai Ping and me at East Coast Park today, so he'll definitely be there under my links! He's still ZE Best of ZE Best !
Speaking of Josh Groban, I remembered one night when I was very in the mood to listen to him so I played his CD and sang myself to sleep when suddenly my Dad walked into the room and told Josh to quieten down cos it's "so late and he shouldn't be singing too loudly." You can't imagine how sad Josh felt (heh heh. OK, a lil' fan obssession here).
Hmm...other than that, I had a great time today, just spending time and chilling out. But I'm quite glad that the fitness plan is working! (All thanks to Duc and Zhiyi!) They've been great motivators and we've started meeting up to jog and stuff. Hope this continues though and by the way, I'm not a fitness nut/freak/guru/buff just because I'm jogging on a regular basis but I feel "fat, corpulent and oily" nowadays...heh heh...just be glad that I'm not doing the whole slimming-by-dieting-and-then-bingeing-later-on thing. I still eat my regular meals and on top of that, I'm not forgetting the daily dose of Chocolate ice-cream so, good news for people who want to stay slim and who love to indulge in food at the same time: just jog, it really works!
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