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Can't believe I'm doing this but since I'm free and I got tagged by Midori to do it, here goes...

(1) If the person who hurt you the most recently apologized, you would say…
I would forgive the person and explain why I'm feeling that way so that he/she wouldn't do it again.

(2) Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?
Of course! That's my sis...

(3) Are you a morning person or a night?
Night...

(4) Are you there for your friends?
Of course!!! [I hope I am...haha]

(5) Are you a forgiving person ?
Most of the time, yes in general

(6) Do you smoke on the regular?
I HATE SMOKING! The smell puts me off...

(7) Are you mad at anyone now?
Probably myself

(8) Are you an aunt/uncle?
Wish I was but even if someone had to be aunt/uncle in my family, the title would most probably go to my siblings first. [hopefully...haha!]

(9) Who was the last person you ate with?
My g12 people!

(10) Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?
That would be Stephanie Chung...haha!

(11) What is something that you do daily that your friends might not know?
Hmm..nothing unusual, unless you count the fact that I have a habit of packing my clothes cupboard all over again everytime I see so much as one shirt being out of place.

(12) Are you feeling uneasy about something lately?
Yeah...my future

(13) Do you have plans for your friends next birthday?
Should be...I always have plans...hahaha...

(14) Where are your top three friends right now?
Huh...such a general question...where are they at the moment (eg.shopping) or where are they in their lives now?

(15) Ever punched somebody or been punched?
Both! Many times with my brother when we were much younger as well as once when I was in primary school. This stupid guy had no regard for girls and I thought I should teach him a lesson so we had a physical fight. Much hair-pulling,kicking,scratching and punching involved but I ended it with a grand finale at a very appropriate area :D

(16) Do you want children?
Yeah! At least 2 kids, no gender preference

(17) You’re in the hospital, who of your friends would come visit you?
If the cheapskate clan doesn't come, I think I'll die right there in my hospital bed. Besides that, of course, hopefully, the people whom I regularly keep in touch with...

(18) Anyone from your past come to mind often?
Hmm...occasionally...

(19) Are you a happy person?
I hope I am...haha...

(20) Is your coming birthday on a holiday?
Nooooo!!! But I have no school on that day [which is just around the corner].

(21) If you had one wish for your best friends what would it be?
That they will be happy and healthy always so that I do not have to worry about them :)

(22) Could you ever be in a long distance relationship?
Hmm..that's hard but possible. It will be a good test of our loyalty and commitment.

(23) Do you have good grades?
Average. Not outstanding.

(24) Does anyone like you?
Yeah, my family and friends :P

(25) What did you last eat?
Chocolate cake and chocolate milk for brunch!

(26) What are you wearing right now?
Heh heh..my PJs..I just got up not long ago...

(27) Where is your handphone?
In front of me

(28) What are you looking forward to for this coming week?
A ride on the Singapore Flyer sponsored by Sze Yee :D:D

(29) What's your favorite subject?
Easy! English and English Lit.

(30) What's something you really want right now?
Maybe a laptop [so that I don't have to fight with my brother to use the com] and to either get my mp3 fixed or get a new one if the cost of repairing it proves too much.

(31) Did you buy something new?
New clothes for school! :D

(32) What color is your hair?
All Black. All Natural. No Chemicals. Pure, virgin hair :P

(33) Do you find yourself loved?
Very. Couldn't be more blessed :)

(34) If given another chance to love a person again, would you do so?
If seen in a romantic context, then it has to be no as relationships from the past are meant to be lessons for future relationships.

(35) What are you doing aside from this?
Listening to music. Blog-hopping.

4 people being tagged are: Sze Yee, Louis, My sister,Sam.


Now for updates!

School so far has been OK...saw some familiar people here and there. The lecturers are an assorted bunch: some are very charismatic whilst others should just read bedtime stories to their kids [if they even have any]. I'm quite worried about the workload but, by God's Grace, I can do it! (I'm saying this with much conviction to psycho myself actually). Can't wait for tonight! Out with Yeeeeee! :)

theme: psychadelic

Cui must have heaved a big sigh of relief after the thing ended cos she was so stressed up over the whole thing, rushing here and there to make sure everything's OK.

Pre-party preparations

Voila! All dressed up for the theme!

Miss you all loads! [plus Dhab...Didn't forget you!]

Double happinessThe Bar area.

See how stressed Cui is. Contrast that with Constance and her boyfriend...haha!

Sadly, this event seems to be the object of everyone's affections that night [especially Mingxiu!]

The final result after the many minutes of toiling hard under the moonlightCui teaching the couples the dancesteps for Rock n' Roll

Cui happily performing her "Qi Shi Er Bian" with her church friends..haha!

The song item we did for Cui: Practised a few times before the big day but there were still some blunders here and there. Anyway, Cui likes it, that's all that matters! :D
Thanks for the pictures Yee! :D

Happy Birthday Cui!!!

School starts tomorrow! Although I'm starting later than the others, I'm still feeling a tinge of anxiety (OK, A LOT actually!).

Read a couple of blogs and it seems like most people feel the same way as I do too! I'm not alone! haha!

OK,at least Joan is with me for the first lecture tomorrow! :)

the common unknown

Hello.

Sometimes I have no idea how to start off a blog entry. It seems wrong to say "Hello!" when actually my mood isn't really an exclamation mark and right now I'm feeling REAL tired cos I went shopping with Ai Ping at Chinatown just now after our unfruitful journey to school..heh heh...

Anyway, I'm quite happy with my purchase and I have reason to be satisfied cos we spent about half and hour in the shop, trying and debating and I finally got to bring Ai Ping to THE famous dessert store! :D:D

Went to JB on Sunday with Alvin, Yireng, Midori and Virnice to catch a movie. We watched "The Mummy:Tomb of the Dragon Emperor" AGAIN! Can you believe it?! But it was worth it cos I got to see Russell Wong [aka.General Ming] again! There's a nice photo of him at imdb.com which I could not save due to copyright issues so, go see for yourself!

In general, it was a nice road trip:had stone grill, shopped and bought a nice top, speaking of which I really have to proclaim to the whole world that Alvin and Yireng are sooo nice to lend me enough Ringgit to get it cos I only brought a grand total of about RM26 there. Not only that, they paid for our Stone Grill meal, willingly forked out money to get our Baskin' Robbins Ice-creams and the Dunkin Donuts for the 3 of us to bring home for our families! I really feel super duper guilty because of that.

See how good Alvin's Mixed Grill is compared to my miserable piece of Chicken Chop. Actually, the Chicken Chop is quite reasonable in terms of size. I'm just sore cos I can't get to eat beef until this Saturday due to my pledge to abstain from beef during the 40-day fast.

Got home at 12 plus midnight cos the movie started at 8 plus and there was a jam at customs.

School's officially starting next week but we're only gonna have lectures cos the balloting round for tutorials wouldn't start until next week. Thank God for the 3 successful modules I got after much blood, sweat and tears from bidding especially Psychology man. [Mine was the winning bid! ]

I'm gonna do Psycho, Socio and Lit this semester! As for the other 2, I'm currently bidding for the World Religions module and a Biotech module. Hopefully the bidding points for these 2 wouldn't be too high yet-my points are running dry! :(

Sometimes I still question the reason behind this whole bidding thing. It's like teaching us how to gamble, like horse betting. That's one thing I dislike about my school.

Hey everyone! Sorry about the previous post, I'm feeling much better now and thanks for all the concern and encouragement. Thought that not many people would bother to come read my posts but after THAT post, I had friends (who were reading my blog secretly) whom I have not talked to who actually approached me to ask me about it but I'm OK now. Sorted things out in my head and came to some conclusion about things so, thanks everyone! :)

Nothing much happened recently actually. Just trying to get into the momentum for school and all-Hope I'm able to have a good start cos I have a strong premonition that bidding is gonna drive me crazy.

Besides that, I have been shopping! :D

And I think one of the best and most satisfying buys would be my new pair of Converse sneakers! Got it at a 40% discount all thanks to Sam, whose friend works there. Woohoo! I found my new shopping hangout! :)

Got the message from Mabel that training for the netball league will be on Wednesdays, which is cell group day. This can't be happening....ahh!!

Everybody! Watch out for Twilight soon in theatres!

Purely for my reference

Actually, I really don't know whether I should post this but I really have to get it off my chest. To some who are aware of this issue, it may seem a little draining that you're hearing this all over again but I just can't take it anymore. Moreover, you may not understand how it's like to be trapped and not being able to do anything about it at all. Hmm...maybe I'm just being a coward for not wanting to accept and change certain things but will it really make matters better? Once and for all, I'm gonna pour my heart out about everything and not think about it for awhile.


If I had a choice I would wanna tell you and you what has been holding me back for so long all this time. It might be best to just shrug it off and go with the flow but I can't allow it to happen. I just feel that I'm not learning and growing at all and everything really seems to be routine. I've thought about this matter for sooo long, even talked to a few people about it but I can't do anything to change matters cos I'm afraid that if I do, nothing might change AND all of you would probably blacklist me for life. I've also talked to Him about it, prayed about it and tried to think about what He would do if He was in my situation but to no avail. This problem just persists year after year.

Back to the point. If I could, I would wanna tell you and you that you all have been very nice to me all these years and such but it might be only skin deep. I would also wanna tell you how difficult it has been for me to undertake the task that He has left for us and that such things need commitment on another level,not the level you all assumed it to be. Do you know how tiring and exhausting it can be physically and emotionally and even mentally to try to know them better just so that we can achieve what He wants us to achieve? Do you know that this task is not just a one-day event and that you have to actually follow up with them all the time? Do you know that in the process of doing so, I was tempted many times to become like them in thought, behaviour,speech and actions? Not that I actually wanna follow them but due to the fact that I hang out with them so much, what they do can become ingrained in me unconsciously? Hmm...maybe I'm not as ready for this task that He has given to me but what can I do?

You know, sometimes it can be so discouraging and unfair that all of you have been treating me like I'm not doing my part for Him and just wasting my life away but I'm really trying my best. It really hurts and you have no idea how much I want you all to understand it but I just know that if I try to explain this to you, you would not accept it at all. I'm just afraid that if it reaches a point where I can't take it anymore, I might not only give up on the task that He commissions to us, I might even lose faith altogether and this would really be unpleasant and devastating for both Him and me cos He has done so much for me so please, give me some space...

Actually, I didn't think that this post would be about you too but I'm just gonna add it in anyway. I just wanna say that I'm grateful for everything you've done for me these past few years: of trying to protect me and provide for me and stuff but sometimes I feel that even though we're so close, there seems to be no personal communication between us at all. I don't blame you for concentrating your energies on more practical things but sometimes, I really wished that I could be more open and honest with you. Deep down in my heart, I really wanna tell you about everything that I've done and about my life and its ups and downs but you were either too preoccupied with other things or you simply did not show interest at all. If you knew about what has happened so far, you wouldn't be judging me from your perspective now and I would probably be able to handle things better. I know that it has not been easy these years and that is why we need each other more than ever. Sometimes, I see yourself in me and I'm gradually starting to think that I'm becoming more like you for the worse. If I had you to talk to, I do not have to trouble other people about my life, really.


As for you and you. Thank you for exposing me to so many things since young and filling up the void that the previous "you" could not but sometimes I can't stand the way you put me down and make me feel bad about myself. I know I have many flaws and I know that I'm imperfect. I just don't want to hear it from you. I realise that nowadays, the more you try to tell me things, the more defiant and indifferent I feel about your opinions. And thanks for being so concerned and caring so much for the previous "you" all the time that you actually lecture me to become good and stuff for the sake of the previous "you" but do both of you realise that I kinda feel trapped and held back because of this? It's like you're thinking too much about the welfare of one person at the expense of another person's welfare cos the latter has to compromise in order to make sure that the former is doing ok. It's precisely because of you that I can't be as extroverted and laidback as some of my friends due to the extent which you have dictated my actions since young and due to the responsibilities which you have drilled in me to manage. So are you happy now that you know that you have achieved your goal of producing the perfect, squeaky clean, cookie-cutter model me? It's so difficult to feel confident about myself cos everytime I try to build myself up, your condescension would come flying through the air like a speeding dagger and bring it all shattering to the ground again. Stop judging how I live my life. I know you mean well and I know that you love me but I don't wanna blame you further for any mishap that may happen in my life due to your comments.

And you. You're seriously the source of all problems. All you do right now is care about your own life and forget about us. You're really selfish. And you expect me to understand your predicament. Sorry, I can't. Cos I've seen how others can rise up to the occasion because of your selfish deeds. Just because of this, my respect for you has gone from hero to zero. And oh ya! Did I mention the suffering you put us through just because of your selfish actions? And did I mention that you nearly screwed up our lives if not for Him? Every time I see your face I can feel this surge of disgust welling up my throat and then I'll think back about June 2006. Sorry that I have to say this but you're seriously a bastard. Do you still care about us? And you think you're so smart and that you're always right. Who do you think you are? God? I'm seriously trying to be nice to you, trying to forget what you did and coaxing myself to just move on but sooner or later, everything you did will just come back again. It's such a vicious cycle and this really requires divine intervention. Enough said.

As for you, I really don't know what to say about you now.Try as I might to help you, you don't seem to be budging from your nutshell. Everyone close to you has either become irritated with you or have given up so tell me, should I forget it and move on too? Consider yourself lucky that so many people are trying to help you be a better person man. I'm not even sure whether you appreciate our effort and I really have to commend the others for being very brave to tell it to you in your face. Speaking about moving on, can I really move on? Sometimes I HATE the fact that I allow personal feelings to get in the way but the flesh is weak. I'm really trying and it's really quite efficient when I imagine myself in the future with you. I don't want it to be a case of deja vu. You should just stop grumbling and start changing! It's no use evaluating yourself all the time and yet not try to do anything and what's even worse, the very people you've been bitching about seems to be a reflection of what you're actually guilty of sometimes.
I really hate the fact that I have to say such things about you but please understand that I do care for you enough to want you to be better. Because of you, I have been fighting this unending internal battle in me and I have been constantly urging myself that you will change for the better so please, don't give me another reason to leave you in the lurch for good cos deep down, I really don't want this to happen.

Also, do you know that sometimes, I feel that you're taking me for granted and going out with me just because no one else is free to do so and cos I happen to be the only "free" one around and whenever I think that, I start to feel depressed and stuff cos it sounds like you're using me and then I would become angry just thinking about it. I know it's not like that all the time but this seems to happen most of the time. However, I don't regret the times I have spent with you cos I do enjoy your company. You can be such a joy at times and I'm starting to cherish whatever memories of you deeply. Thank you for your little gestures of care and concern. It really means a lot to me :)

Anyway, I really don't know what to do and what to feel about you now cos I'm REALLY confused. If there was another word better than "really" to emphasise the dilemma and the pain I'm feeling now, I would gladly use it. Just thinking about you can make me cry now cos I have NEVER felt so helpless/hapless and cos usually when I try to be patient and persist in doing something, hoping to be successful in it, it usually works out but this time, it doesn't seem to be happening. I understand why you may be what you are now but it isn't gonna help if you keep it to yourself. Understand that you're not being selfish if you share your problems with us cos it would be better than us speculating about what is happening and better for you instead of bottling it all up. This is the very reason why I know that you can be so much more than the person you are now and I'm not gonna lose hope.

Sting featuring Cheb Mami - Desert Rose

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of fire
Those dreams that tie two hearts that will never die
And near the flames
The shadows play in the shape of the man's desire

This desert rose
Whose shadow bears the secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume that would torture you more than this

And now she turns
This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams
This fire burns
I realize that nothing's as it seems

I dream of rain
I lift my gaze to empty skies above
I close my eyes
The rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of love

Sweet desert rose
Whose shadow bears the secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume that would torture you more than this

Sweet desert rose
This memory of hidden hearts and souls
This desert flower
This rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of love